I left off in part 1 with a discovery. At 5 almost 6 years old by asking if a friend wanted to come t a VBS I discovered there were people that not only went to church infrequently (this was so in my own extended family), but for whom church had no place at all in their lives. this friend it turns out didnt even know who Jesus Christ was.
My friend never came to vacation bible School (VBS). An awareness came to me in this moment in this town where school superintendents, police, the pharmacists, those who made up the volunteer fire department, were members of Kingsburg Covenant church and other congregations in the town (I assume that the mayor and city council were also members of these same Christians congregations in town but I don’t recall ever knowing who was the mayor of Kingsburg ) who was or wasn’t considered a “good citizen” were evaluated by their commitments to these Christian congregations. This sense of things had no place for someone who had no association at all with these congregations. I had assumed that in someway everyone even if they didn’t attend church regularly was in the orbit of the christian faith, I had assumed Christendom. At that moment I both discovered what Christendom was and that there was something outside of Christendom.
Around the same time as this revelation, one communion Sunday, I asked my parents if I could receive communion, I wanted to receive Jesus in the bread and wine. My parents had me ask Pastor Elving after the service. Pastor Elving didn’t answer yes or no, but had a conversation with me about why I wanted to receive communion. I don’t remember what pastor Elving said to me nor exactly what I said to him, I do remember sharing the desire to receive Jesus. I was told later (i don’t remember Pastor Elving saying this) that I had a better understanding of Communion than many adults. I was impatient for the next communion Sunday, and it began to feel odd to me that we didn’t celebrate the Eucharist every Sunday. In communion and in the caring concern of Pastor Elving our moment of shared faith in the presence of Christ in bread and wine was another moment of Church that transcended the particular practices of that particular congregation though it was also mediated and manifested in that congregation and through the Pastoral office as Pastor Elving embodied it.
I can say then that my experience was uneven, and I can’t imagine what would have happened had my parents and Pastor Elving had dismissed my longing for the body of Christ expressed in the desire to share in the bread and the cup. I do remember thinking it odd that the adults seemed perfectly content to receive Christ only once a month. Christian opinions about guarding the specialness of this symbolic meal were repeated possibly whenever I asked for an explanation. This opinion didn’t seem to fit with the words spoken, with the solemnity with which Pastor Elving prayed and spoke over bread and wine, the seriousness with which he questioned my desire to receive. There was no affirmation of encounter with something that could not be diminished by the frequency of the encounter, no sense of the need for this mystical abiding through physical and ordered means, which I’m here naming church.
When we moved from Kingsburg to Los Angeles as I began Confirmation, the Covenant congregation we ended up going to (because my sister and I liked the youth and children’s programs ), I discovered Christianity without Christendom. Many of my pears connection to the faith was fairly shallow in comparison with the many layers of Church, Christianity and Christendom of Kingsburg. They went to church because their parents went and they were told they had to come. That in the gathering was needed spiritually, that in coming together with other members of the Body of Christ that one was then formed into Christ, that in church one encountered God and Christ in each other and in bread and wine was largely either unimportant or unknown among most of my peers. Attending church seemed meaningless to them, at least form my sense of gathering to encounter God. It was here to that for the first time since nursery that I was segmented off into my age group and no longer regularly was in worship with my parents.
I experienced these distinct and overlapping entities: Church, Christianity and Christendom. As I’ve interpreted it and recollected this experience, Christianity and and Christendom are partially negative aspects of my experience of Church. I’d argue that Christianity and Christendom were only negative in their decadent and decaying interactions. The web of connections between family, congregation, other Christian congregations in the town of Kingsburg and the influence Christianity had upon the civic and social fabric of the town created for me a unified world that was positive and life affirming. In many ways this entire experience was ecclesial. Yet there were always cracks in that world. As I discovered not only a world beyond the institutions of Christendom but also came to realize that for many in congregations (including some of leaders ) that what was for matrix and life was for them about keeping boundaries, following rules, and believing propositions, i could have concluded that the Church was nothing but a human institution. Yet I didn’t come to that conclusion, because something in my experience, whichis hard for me to put my finger on, lead me to see the difference between these three things: Christendom, Christianity, and Church. Only one of these was needful, life giving, and about life, that one thing is the Church. Church was manifest and transcended every local instantiation of it i have experienced. In some local instantiation, I must also admit that the Church was hardly present. It’s possible that many people know Christianity and Christendom but haven’t a clue about this thing called Church the Body of Christ, and I suspect that much of this talk about death of Church is really the uncovering that not every group of Christians is the Church.